This piece is called ‘Serendipitous Blue’.
This was the first piece of art that I worked on after many, many years of not drawing. I was extremely scared, nervous, and fearful about the prospect of drawing again — because it was like I had forgotten how to.

As someone with high perfectionist tendencies, I often avoid(ed) doing things that I felt wouldn’t end up and/or be ‘perfect’ (relative to my - and other people’s - expectations of me). Trying new and unfamiliar things was, and continues to be, highly uncomfortable for me as I am unable to control the outcome of whatever happens. However, following the story of drawing Serendipitous Blue, I ended up finishing the piece despite my anxieties at the time, and it has since become one of my favorite pieces in my repertoire of artworks. In retrospect, I believe it to be because of how it was different from my usual pieces — because I tried something new.

Being a perfectionist with an inclination towards avoidant behavior, I want to acknowledge the discomforts I feel when trying new and unfamiliar things. But amidst those discomforts, I hope to remember that I have done this before — that I have persisted through and finished in the past, and that I ended up making something beautiful that I love and am proud of in the end (with the memory of enjoying and being proud of the experience along the way as well).

I hope to remind myself that the discomfort is normal, but to remember that if I am able to continue and push through, that I might be able to gain and create something beautiful at the end (for me).


Musical Accompaniment(s):
• [Midnight Teddy] Mine Is Yours — Spotify link
• [OneRepublic] Good Life — Spotify link